Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Prayer....

I have the most dear people in my life.  Really.  Even those of you I don't talk to often.  I am so blessed.  It is one thing that makes me feel charmed.  I have always had such an army of precious people in my life.  They have poured into my life in each new stage, claiming another piece of my heart and teaching me more.  It is one thing I daily pray for Abby Kate.  That she will have people in her life that encourage and inspire her and point her to Him.  I truly have been so blessed!

So thank you each for praying for us.  Thank you for your emails, your calls, your prayers.  I know many of you read this and then pray.  Thank you.  Thank you for asking for specifics lately.  Even in my new discoveries, authenticity often brings vulnerability which is still a bit hard for me.  But I realized today, I covet your prayers more than I care about being vulnerable.  So here it goes...

I went to my OB  a little over a month ago.  She did a ton of blood work and found out my progesterone was super low.  She started me on a really high dose last month.  We did not get pregnant.  
However, there is some positive to it.  Since my first miscarriage (which was ectopic), I have had moderate to severe pain in my right side.  I have always associated it will bad pregnancies but it has been consistently painful the past 3 months.  Thursday, they are doing a stone study (kidney stones), a scan of my gallbladder and then a cat scan of my abdomen.  If all of that is clear, Dad wants to do a colonoscopy (gag).  I have a super high pain tolerance and the pain has been terrible at times so I know something is going on.  2 months ago, they did another ultrasound and found tons of cysts on my ovary which also could be causing the pain.  My prayer is that they find something Thursday that is easily treatable.  I pray it is NOTHING to do with my reproductive system.  I already know it will be a struggle not to worry or fear when we get pregnant again.  I do not want this pain in my side to add fuel to the fire.  We are both still hopeful and not despairing.  It seems God has put a precious bubble around us, keeping us safe and at peace.  We are so thankful!

We also are continuing to seek His will.  We have felt a call to adoption even before the miscarriages so we both have wondered if God is trying to show us our child is out there needing us NOW rather than in our time frame (which was have all of our biological children and then adopt).  Please pray for wisdom and clarity in this as well.  

We are continuing to pray that God's will be done in our lives.  We know He has a plan, one that will bring a hope and a future and we trust it is better than ours.  Thank you again for praying.  We know He hears us!

3 comments:

Cat said...

Oh, Steph...I am so sorry you're having to deal with all of this... Did they find anything last week? I am praying for you, friend.

Jeremy and Melanie said...

Praying for you! I know this is so difficult for you, but thank you for allowing us on this journey with you and letting us know how to pray for you!

I'm Sadie said...

Still praying for you. Please know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Trust in Him.